Distance

With Richard on deployment, we are definitely faced with the challenge of staying connected, and up to date on what's going on with both of us. I try to keep Richard informed with stories and photos of the boys, and news of all that is happening here so that he doesn't feel like he is missing out on milestones, or big achievements while he's gone. Even though we are separated physically by many miles, I want him to feel like he is still very much a part of our lives, and vice-versa.

I think we do a pretty good job of communicating and sharing, and just simply asking each other what's new or how we're doing. 

Every once in awhile though, I will make mistakes. This happened yesterday.

I got some very exciting news in the morning, when I received an email from the folks over at www.thesmartly.com, that I had been accepted to be a contributing writer for them. This is huge for me; the first opportunity I have had to publish my writing on a site other than my own blog. I was thrilled when I got the news, and quickly told everyone I knew.

Almost.

It wasn't until about 7 o'clock last night that I suddenly realized I hadn't told Richard. 

I hadn't told my husband. The person closest to me.

How could I have made such an oversight?

This was the biggest news I have had in a long time, and I couldn't understand how I had failed to tell him the moment that I found out. I instantly typed out an email to him. I told him a thousand times that I wish more than anything he were here with me so we could celebrate together.

It made me feel a little better, but not much. I try so hard to keep him in our thoughts and in our hearts. His photos are everywhere, and I check my email like every five seconds, hoping to hear from him. He is constantly on my mind, and yet, his absence all these months caused me to forget the fact that he should be first on my list of people I share big stuff with.

It's not easy, having the miles and distance between us. No matter how on top of things I think I may be, I was reminded last night that I have to continually work to make sure that the physical distance between us does not become emotional as well.