Ugly Souls

I've been feeling very frustrated lately.

Frustrated with people that are - not necessarily in my life any longer - but definitely on the periphery of it, and creating a lot of unnecessary worry and drama for those I love.

This is my blog. This is my voice. And I have been struggling with wanting to come here and vent about these things that are bothering me. But ultimately I have decided I can't. For one thing, it's not really my story to tell, and another, I believe that even though it might feel good at the time to get these things off my chest, I may end up regretting it.

I have however, come to a decision. I am so tired of these selfish, destructive people ruling my life. Wondering what they will do next, who they are going to try to hurt tomorrow. And honestly, I can't live this way. Just thinking about them and their actions makes me sick. It is sad to realize that people like this actually exist; that they walk among us, claiming to be good people of high moral character, yet, it's just a facade. What they're really doing is wearing masks to hide their ugly souls.

They're more interested in protecting their precious "image", rather than owning up to the truth, and to what they have done, and the people they have hurt. They don't know the meaning of the words apology or accountability.

So here's what I know: I am happy. I am loved, but more importantly, I know how to love in return. Life is good. God is always good. I know that God sees all. And God knows the truth.

So while these people can lie to their friends, lie to their family, lie to their church, and even lie to themselves, they cannot lie to God. And on the days when I feel most frustrated, I take comfort in that fact. I refuse to allow these poisonous individuals turn me into an angry, bitter person.

Life goes on, thankfully. And at some point, we will look back and know this was just a horrible bump in the road, but that the end result was worth enduring this painful journey.